Grateful Heart

For about a year I’ve been struggling with my art. I love my art. I define myself as an artist. I have lived as an artist for at least 7 years. Then last July my step-dad was diagnosed with throat cancer. Since I live within blocks of the cancer center, it was an obvious decision to ask my parents to live with me while he went through treatment. 

As a single mom, I had a lot on my plate already. Add a sick parent, doctor appointments, scheduling, and all of my other responsibilities, my time in the studio quickly began to slip. I have learned that if you don’t have set hours at a job, it is easy to let time slip away not working. A few months later I found myself in a position I had feared. I was broke. 

I closed my art studio, packed all of my paintings and supplies into my dining room, and went back to the corporate world. I felt completely and utterly defeated. It wasn’t long before I wanted to paint again. Now, balancing a full-time job and my son, I have had little time for my  art over the past year. I’ve had those little moments of panic when I feel like it’s slipping too far away. 

Very recently though, I have refocused. Sometimes it takes getting knocked down to stop us long enough for us to refocus on what it is we’re doing. Now I’ve reset my sails and the winds of change are blowing. 

I’m making baby steps to make my art an active priority in my life again. And this week has filled my heart with such gratitude. I am moved to tears by the fruits of my labor. This week I have sold 12 paintings. This would be the product of 2 exhibitions, a weekend showing, a tv appearance, and marketing efforts. This week has been much needed lift to my spirit. I feel like I know I’m moving back in the right direction again. Image

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About strokeofred

I am from Kansas and I have traveled all over the world. I am an artist, and I have a business brain. I love skirts and tennis shoes. I like to get dirty and ride motorcycles. I am sensitive and I can be mean. I love nature, and believe in protecting it. I love to laugh, and feel better after a good cry. I can be stubborn and impatient. I am constantly growing. I am open and free. I look to be inspired and love to inspire. I play guitar and secretly want to play drums. I have a puppy that brings me great joy. I love hugs, cuddling, holding hands...and wrestling. I love the mountains and the beach. I have to make a pilgrimage to the ocean at least twice a year to balance myself. I believe in balance in all things. Traveling is a passion, and meeting interesting people from all over the world is the perk! I have small town values, and big city dreams. I love beer, hate wine. I believe that what you put out comes back. I believe and live by the belief of treating others like you want to be treated. I enjoy stimulating conversation, and a good sense of humor. Caffeine is my drug of choice, and coffee over chess or good conversation is my luxury. I am strong but sometimes feel small. I strive to be my authentic me.
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6 Responses to Grateful Heart

  1. Kat says:

    You inspired me today with this post.

  2. I am filled with joy for you! Continue to follow peace. You are an inspiration. xoxoxo ❤

  3. Katie (PinkSpazz) says:

    ❤ that you are taking time for you! and your art is amazing… ;D

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