Happiness is a Choice

I use to get so mad when people told me happiness was a choice. It didn’t feel like a choice. I just can’t make myself be happy when I’m not.

It’s odd, because this week I feel like I have come close to having all of the life energy sucked out of me. I feel empty and anxious. I’m dealing with life crisis and trying to stay calm. I’m faced with sadness, life change, and a whole lot of responsibility. It feels daunting. I’ll admit, I’m a little afraid I might not be up to the challenge (though I know I will).

While going through all of this, I’ve had two people contact me and ask me how I’m always so happy. I had to pick my jaw up off of the floor. I still seem happy to others? It’s not like I’m sitting around and moping, but I never expected others to come to me for advice about how to be living a joyful life in a time I am not feeling much (they aren’t aware of the personal issues in my life).

And then it occurred to me….happiness IS a choice. I had one of those Ah-Ha moments. I choose not to wallow. I choose to focus on positive and look for hope. I do things that bring me joy and reenergize me. I drink coffee in the sun, I read inspirational stories, I paint, I hug my kiddo. I write down all of the things I am incredibly grateful for in my life (and the list is long!). I choose to not allow myself to be bottomed out. I choose to focus on refilling myself by being good to myself. I choose happiness….or at least the pursuit of it.


About strokeofred

I am from Kansas and I have traveled all over the world. I am an artist, and I have a business brain. I love skirts and tennis shoes. I like to get dirty and ride motorcycles. I am sensitive and I can be mean. I love nature, and believe in protecting it. I love to laugh, and feel better after a good cry. I can be stubborn and impatient. I am constantly growing. I am open and free. I look to be inspired and love to inspire. I play guitar and secretly want to play drums. I have a puppy that brings me great joy. I love hugs, cuddling, holding hands...and wrestling. I love the mountains and the beach. I have to make a pilgrimage to the ocean at least twice a year to balance myself. I believe in balance in all things. Traveling is a passion, and meeting interesting people from all over the world is the perk! I have small town values, and big city dreams. I love beer, hate wine. I believe that what you put out comes back. I believe and live by the belief of treating others like you want to be treated. I enjoy stimulating conversation, and a good sense of humor. Caffeine is my drug of choice, and coffee over chess or good conversation is my luxury. I am strong but sometimes feel small. I strive to be my authentic me.
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