Learning to Breathe

In order to tackle some toddler tantrum issues that have have recently surfaced at my house, I have had to change some of my own behaviors. I am having to learn how to breathe.

Up  to his point, I think it is fair to say I have lived a pretty reactionary existence. I have carried this characteristic into adulthood and parenthood. I’m learning as a mother that our children are little mirrors of ourselves. They love us, want to be like us, and in turn mimic our behavior.

This has recently challenged me to think before reacting from an emotional standpoint. I am learning to be more mindful of my emotions, my use of them, and my parental instincts. This is not just a parental lesson; this is a lesson that can be applied to life in general. It’s important to be conscious and mindful of the way we interact with the world and how our behaviors and reactions affect others.

I have been working on a series of paintings lately I’ve been calling “Meditation Paintings”. They have a mandala quality to them. They require a repetitive motion to make. If I make one wrong stroke the entire painting can be ruined. I have started using these paintings as a way to challenge myself with a meditative mindfulness. In order to be mindful I have to clear my head of all the other clutter around me and be completely and totally in the moment. I will admit, I’m not very good at it, but I am a work in progress. When I find my mind wandering, I notice my paint strokes are less consistent. I am gentle with myself. I remind myself to breathe, clear my mind, and come back to the moment. With each stroke I make I take a breath.  I am learning to breathe all over again…in parenting, art, and life.

 

Image

Advertisements

About strokeofred

I am from Kansas and I have traveled all over the world. I am an artist, and I have a business brain. I love skirts and tennis shoes. I like to get dirty and ride motorcycles. I am sensitive and I can be mean. I love nature, and believe in protecting it. I love to laugh, and feel better after a good cry. I can be stubborn and impatient. I am constantly growing. I am open and free. I look to be inspired and love to inspire. I play guitar and secretly want to play drums. I have a puppy that brings me great joy. I love hugs, cuddling, holding hands...and wrestling. I love the mountains and the beach. I have to make a pilgrimage to the ocean at least twice a year to balance myself. I believe in balance in all things. Traveling is a passion, and meeting interesting people from all over the world is the perk! I have small town values, and big city dreams. I love beer, hate wine. I believe that what you put out comes back. I believe and live by the belief of treating others like you want to be treated. I enjoy stimulating conversation, and a good sense of humor. Caffeine is my drug of choice, and coffee over chess or good conversation is my luxury. I am strong but sometimes feel small. I strive to be my authentic me.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s